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Past in the present

So, a random thought came to me today. How do you move on when your past is still in the present? I guess you have to look at it from different points of view. Usually your past is a learning process. (Some of us have to go through this process numerous times.)You can choose to grow from this process, or get left behind. I feel your past is a "crossroads" scenario. You have to choose to move forward and leave what was done in the past OR... You can turn around and go back to see if you can fix what has been broken. Everyone has to weigh their options. I feel if you do want to go back, you need to decide if its really worth it. If you know things will change and you have complete faith in that situation. Notice I didn't say if you Love that person or thing? By experience,I find that love isn't enough. Sometimes when you love someone or something its just better to let go. If and when you do move forward to conquer your goals and move on with your life, just remember one thing. FORGIVE. Forgiveness isn't for the other person, it's for yourself.Without this the "moving on" process will not be a successful one. So, back to my initial question.."how do you move on when your past is still in the present?" I say with forgiveness,knowledge, and hope for a better future.

An answered prayer...

So where do I start? How about the beginning? Like every story there's always a man. I fell in love with that man who I believed had my best interest at heart, someone who I felt would be by my side when I needed him. Unfortunately things didn't work out as planned. So is all fair in love & war? In my case, yes. Through the pain and hurt came a beautiful baby boy named Peyton. I never thought I would have a child this soon. I wasn't ready. There is and was so many things I wanted to do first. Yet and behold...here he is. Big gum smile with his two bottom teeth. Brought sunshine in my life. I remember when my relationship ended, being so heart broke. I was laying on my bed and crying my eyes out. I prayed to God, "God, please heal my heart, please send me someone that will love me as much as I love them". At the time I was talking about a lover, but God had another idea in mind. He does answer prayers. It may not be what you initially meant but it will be answered. Have a little faith. I know things get hard, and I still struggle with the hardships of being a single parent everyday but it gets better. I wouldn't change a thing. I honesty don't know how I lived this long without my son. Words can't express the love I feel.